life sucks

I made sum mistakes & will have 2 suffer for those thru d life;life doesn't offers a second chance ,alas ! how true this is. you want a career & for that u resign from a very very nice job(in hindsight) then for 5 years u screw urself daydreaming, boasting,planning but never give a fair try.RESULT : U are SCREWED FOR THE LIFETIME(rOAD 2 PERDITION) ;end up in a dull,mediocre job which u always feel is not what u deserve & to add to that u get married 2 d love of ur life( If it was love then love is death); GOD knows yes only GOD knows how desperate I am 2for a freedom ; I want to turn back time(If only I cud). Give me another chance I don't want to follow my dreams never will fall in love.